Reality check

13 February 2007

No, nothing major happened today. I think. but i thought i'd blog because i have this amazing feeling. And it's been so long since i've had this feeling, i just had to describe it and revel in it.

I feel like i've been in a coma for so long except i was also in continuous pain and no one could lessen or numb it. And suddenly with no warning i resurface, with a sudden determination and will i wake up from that deadly slumber and the pain is gone. and I can finally be alive. And i'm so happy. why wouldn't i be? i had been in the middle of life and death for so long. so long that i had forgotten what it felt like to be alive.

Maybe i finally understand what they mean by needing the lows to appreciate the highs. maybe. Though that doesn't make the lows suck any less. So yeah i suddenly realised that i'm free again. Sure it may only be for a very brief while. Life does't give you a break. But atleast for now i am free. Free from doubt and insecurity. I know i don't have to worry about my results yet. The guy i love is still sticking with me, if only for a little longer. I have found an awesome friend in an awesome person. AND i found the perfect song to match my mood. omg i'm in love again! lol...if you trust me and like my kind of music then listen and love "Why Georgia" by John mayer. Yes tonight i can go to sleep happy and peaceful. And i don't mind if i enjoy this tiny bit of sunshine amidst the rain clouds. I think i deserve it.

Woah...i didn't know THAT would make this big a post. Great huh? lol...don't mind me. i love you guys. i love you sarah and i love you vipul. for now i can say that out loud and proud. Good night.